Saturday, March 29, 2008
Emotions

Exams are looming, and so the urge to do anything but study is even greater than before! Not that i dun have alot of work to do on normal days... But gone are my 8-9 hours sleep. sheesh...

Recently, i rewatched the show 200 pound beauty. Ya... i think that's my 3rd time watching that show! Partly cos i quite like the song. Haha! The ending is ur pretty normal tear jerking type. And ya... i actually teared abit.. Life has been like "running to catch the train". Somehow, it's about rushing from place to place. Fast paced and stressful. There was a part, at the end that is, whereby the actress was saying that she was forgeting who she really was. And that she can no longer remember what she looked like. (Cos she went for lipo plus plastic surgery in the show)

Sometimes, i feel this is a prob that alot of us have too. We juz do this, do that... Cos we feel that this is right, that is right. This will help in learning better. This will value add to our life (or grades?) This will help us get our "perfect" job etc etc... I think u get the idea.

Actually... maybe it's juz me. But trying to follow the norm is pretty tiring... And seriously... i dun follow alot anyways. I am not anti social, but it's quite stressful sometimes, even if it is juz walking around sch. Having to say hi here and hi there. really... And then u see ppl that u know by face, but u dun or hardly talk to, and then u dunno whether to say hi or not. When u do, sometimes for me it's awkard. When u dun, it's also awkard. So how?

Btw this is juz one example. I hardly study back in JC and Sec sch days... Now that i have to keep studying... It;s damn sians... really... Ya... i am a slacker... I want to be myself... Haha! I think i really need a break. A break whereby i do like totally nothing... I hope i can last past my exams man... hiaz...
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